lostreflections Member Posts: 131 From: Registered: 05-29-2002 |
 ------------------ Brice Lost Reflections -- When your life comes crumbling down around you, can you count on the one person who has never been there for you? Lost Reflections is a heart warming story of personal redemption and second chances. |
gingerellies Member Posts: 50 From: Orlando, FL Registered: 05-28-2002 |
well, I tryed to google it, but it was no help. What does it mean? ------------------ |
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lostreflections Member Posts: 131 From: Registered: 05-29-2002 |
A personal statement in my native Tsalagi. In English, it would be "My depression is winning" |
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nfektious Member Posts: 408 From: Registered: 10-25-2002 |
Brice - Please don't let your depression get the better of you. I mean that with all sincerity. I've read alot of the things you've posted and I can tell that deep in your heart you know what is right and that you love those close to you and even those you push away. Please share your issues with someone - with us here even. Please do not let the brutal realities of life deceive you into thinking that the solemn uncertainties of death is a solution. I love you as a person and I love you as a Christian - and I beg you to share your fears, your feelings with us. I know I'm not the only one who cares about you in this manner. In truth and love, [This message has been edited by Nfektious (edited November 26, 2002).] |
CobraA1 Member Posts: 926 From: MN Registered: 02-19-2001 |
Depression? The way I fought depression was with a forcible change of my emotions - I forced a smile, even when not happy, and I tried to feel happy as well. I was also attending a small college; being around friends helped tremendously. My depression was mild, though. I'm not sure how you feel, and I'm not an expert anyway. If it gets too bad, you might want to consider finding a professional. Whatever you do, don't even think about suicide - I'm sure your life will turn around at some point. Life goes in cycles. The depression will not last forever. |
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lostreflections Member Posts: 131 From: Registered: 05-29-2002 |
>>I beg you to share your fears, your feelings with us<< People have their own issues to deal with, I am sure they do not need to hear about mine.
Kinda ironic, huh? In Christianity people look forward to death and the afterlife where they no longer have to deal with the issues they face in life.
Unfortunately, I do not have any friends.
If you have ever seen my picture, my arms are quite visibly scarred from my various suicide attempts and self mutilation from cutting and burning. ------------------ Brice Lost Reflections -- When your life comes crumbling down around you, can you count on the one person who has never been there for you? Lost Reflections is a heart warming story of personal redemption and second chances. |
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nfektious Member Posts: 408 From: Registered: 10-25-2002 |
quote: It's not ironic, Brice. It's actually sad. Are you willing to deny yourself the opportunity for God to work through you or even deny God the opportunity to work in your life? Christianity doesn't focus on death but rather the life that we have in and through Christ. If you're tired of living your life, try living in Him. I know I'd love to have you as a true brother. In the fellowship of the Father, [This message has been edited by Nfektious (edited November 26, 2002).] |
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lostreflections Member Posts: 131 From: Registered: 05-29-2002 |
quote: Actually depression and suicide are two different critters (although they often coincide). I am depressed NOT suicidal. Life is like a Chinese laundry. Sometimes you get starch in your drawers when you don't want it, but all you can do is keep wearing them until they soften up from your sweat. ------------------ Brice Lost Reflections -- When your life comes crumbling down around you, can you count on the one person who has never been there for you? Lost Reflections is a heart warming story of personal redemption and second chances. |
Mack Administrator Posts: 2779 From: Registered: 01-20-2001 |
Depression is a thing I fought with for 3 years. I transformed from a normal guy in some fear consuming destructive monster of hate, I thought the only answer I had was to kill myself. I prayed to God to kill me, I tried numerous times to kill myself (fortunately with no luck) I would lay away at night and try to battle the flood of terrifying thoughts that would plauge me everyday. However God pulled me out (when I finally relized that I can't do this myself), my Fiance has helped me out and has been great about it, I've refocused and reclaimed my life and I'm doing alright for a change. When you look at it, depression is a thing where your current situation sucks and it looks like your future sucks, but you never really know what your future is, you never really know what's going to happen. Brice, you might not have friends now, but you might in the future! you might not have a relationship now but you might in the future! you might think your ugly, fat, stupid and worthless but God thinks your a great guy who is smart, funny, precious and has alot of potential. Look at all these people who have come to aid you, do you think they are doing it because they feel like "oh yeah, I'm a Christian, I 'guess' I should help" no way! Nfektious here sent me the link to this discussion and has expressed deep concern over you, we all love you man! I know it seems corny or whatever, but it's the truth, we love you, we think your cool, we enjoy your comments (even if sometimes not everyone agrees with them) and we want you to stick around for the party. It might seem like your being dragged along a field of thorns tied with a spiked chain, but you can grab that chain, whip your depression down into the thorns and kick it's @$$ for a change. You CAN overcome this! ------------------ |
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Mack Administrator Posts: 2779 From: Registered: 01-20-2001 |
quote: YOU GO BRO! FIGHT IT HARD! FIGHT IT GOOD! ------------------ |
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lostreflections Member Posts: 131 From: Registered: 05-29-2002 |
quote: Depression is just anger turned inwards.
quote: *no comment*
quote: I have been happily married for 9 1/2 years to my wife Aimee who has been there for me no matter what, and who at age 44 has a body that puts Britney Spears to shame. I am VERY happily married.
quote: hmm... I didn't think so until you brought it up
As to fat, as I said, 6'2", 245lbs, 20" arms, can bench 450, deadlift 800, and used to leg press 1200, but with bad knees I am down to 700. Don't have an ounce of fat on me.
quote: For those who can't figure out the meaning. Life does not always give you what you want (starch in your drawers), but through perseverance (keep wearing them) and hard work (sweat), you will get through the problem (soften them up). ------------------ Brice Lost Reflections -- When your life comes crumbling down around you, can you count on the one person who has never been there for you? Lost Reflections is a heart warming story of personal redemption and second chances. [This message has been edited by lostreflections (edited August 13, 2002).] |
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gingerellies Member Posts: 50 From: Orlando, FL Registered: 05-28-2002 |
You will make it, you have far too many people pulling for you  I admire your strength. Your family is very lucky to have you and so are we. Hang in there, and remember, we are all here for you if you need us.------------------ |
c h i e f y Member Posts: 415 From: Surrey, United Kingdom Registered: 03-07-2002 |
well said Ginger  Lost... you still here? you "ok" now ?? I think you DO have some friends m8 just read this thread ! ------------------ why not access chiefy's NEW worklogs ? |
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nfektious Member Posts: 408 From: Registered: 10-25-2002 |
I hate to be the bearer of not-so-great news, but Brice has resolved his account - he no longer as access to it and most likely won't be returning to CCN. He also has been working on his PC - which also explains his long disappearance. Along with that - and probably the biggest reason for him leaving - is that he has some personal things to handle that require alot of his time. I wanted to share what I could with all of you so that you can put your minds to rest about this thread. Brice is doing well though, but like everyone who has alot to deal with needs to be remembered in prayer. I would like to encourage everyone (myself included) to lift everyone involved here at CCN and the affiliate sites and ministries up in prayer. God Bless, [This message has been edited by Nfektious (edited November 26, 2002).] |
InsanePoet Member Posts: 638 From: Vermont, USA Registered: 03-12-2003 |
I'll be praying ------------------ |
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c h i e f y Member Posts: 415 From: Surrey, United Kingdom Registered: 03-07-2002 |
quote: never heard of this before he "resolved his account" ? not in the CCN faq - so is this a REAL procedure ? Insane Poet well to cheer up I personally love this colour chart, I literally refer to it DAILY whilst programming in BB, Lost - thanks for that m8, most appreciated ------------------ why not access chiefy's NEW worklogs ? |
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InsanePoet Member Posts: 638 From: Vermont, USA Registered: 03-12-2003 |
Kinda got sick of the arguement myself, cheify Yes, it's an actual procedure ------------------ [This message has been edited by Insanepoet (edited September 12, 2002).] |
Briant Member Posts: 742 From: Stony Plain, Alberta, Canada Registered: 01-20-2001 |
Hey lostreflections, I went through a serious depression a couple years ago. If ya wanna talk, let me know. I hope you're getting at least medication, and hopefully counselling as well. Brian ------------------ |
Want a drink really bad but fighting that urge since I am an alcoholic.
