tough times will always come; it's what makes us stronger.
just remember, that all things work to good for those who love God and are called to his purpose. hold strong.

I appreciate the fact that your are concerned with our faith. although I cannot speak for others, I'll ask you to elaborate if it can help in anyway.

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Originally posted by ArchAngel:
bro, we got your back. of course you have our prayers.

tough times will always come; it's what makes us stronger.
just remember, that all things work to good for those who love God and are called to his purpose. hold strong.

I appreciate the fact that your are concerned with our faith. although I cannot speak for others, I'll ask you to elaborate if it can help in anyway.

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I totally agree. We're here for ya.

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Oh you program? Awsome! I try to get in a little....I spend most of my time debugging.

And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold. But he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved.
(Mat 24:12-13 KJV)

God bless you.

So therefore i will now elaborate:
Iv'e gone through Church my whole life since i was 7 and have always been looked up to as the kid with all the answers so much so that i was left alone untill they(my youth group) realized that that was not right. I was never been much of a talker, I was always the quiet one. I tended to start things, to make people think. So I have always been more of a thinker than anything else. But when I got to being 12 and on I became very lonely. You see i was the Nerd, the smart kid and therefore, was not to be friends with and look cool with, that is until my Youth group saw through it all. But I made God a promise that I would not go after any girls until I saw the one he wanted me to be with. I did this because of my early childhood before I was adopted. People have always told me to not live in my past and so I dont. But as DC Talk once said: Its not what you were, its what youv'e become. My biological parents were not very good parents so I got taken away. And then adopted. Now you know my early past. So now i will explain what happened when I met her.

Again I ask that what is read from this point on not be read if you are not rock solid in your faith in Christ AND do not feel led to do so by God. You all have been warned.

I met her at Wendy's where i worked when i was 18 and a senior in High School. And I swear she was like an angel to me, and I just sensed it, and just knew that she was the one, the one that God had led me to be with. Or at least I thought I did, now after whats happened i'm not sure of anything anymore. I do my best to not think about and rely on little faith I have. In November of 03 we became engaged, and about a month later in Dec she told me something that since has almost destroyed my faith.

This is you alls last warning. Do NOT read on if you dont feel led to do so, I implore you all. If you do YOU will suffer if you have not been led to so. You have been warned.

I have always known that spiritual warfare exists. Have always been able to sense it, I don't know why. If you want proof it exists just listen to some christian youth camp music. That place where you go and get on fire and then go home and eventually deflate, and you feel so happy, so radiant. But if you listen to secular music and do so with your heart you can hear the emptiness, feel the hollowness. And if you really listen you can hear them whispering temptations trying to influence you to evil.
But you all know what I mean.

We met at wendys in 03 when I 18 and a senior at High School and I swear I saw an angel and I just knew that she was the one that God had been leading me to. Now though i'm not so sure. In November we became engaged. About a month later she told me something that changed me forever. She told me she was an archangel by the name of Illari Sky and she had sent to this world to help people have hope. I was very amazed and so I asked her i was human and she said yes. I was not happy about that. I have always wanted to make a difference in peoples lives. About a month later when I was working at wendys all the sudden I felt so strange and then my back was in such pain and then i saw them. They were black leathery wings. She then realized that I was a demon and told that my name was Meridyn Lucifer Alloran Rayon. (which means: torn one, light, purple, ribbon.) Now i dont blame you all if you think i should burn or die, but from what i read from all the postings, I hope I was right in coming here. Yall are as close as it comes to what I love to do. I came here in need of a steadying hand. I hope you all understand.

In February of 04 before we graduated from high school she convinced to run away from home together because her grandparents were to mean to her, abusive. And so we did. Now as you can imagine she got pregnant, but then she had told me that her last boyfriend had made it to where she could never have kids and I believed her. We were forced to move back in with her grandparents when we found out that the people we were living with were doing crack and so we got out of there real fast. We got married Oct. 11. I continued to be plagued by doubts. I did the best that I could. I'd come home exhausted, eat, and spend some time with her and go to sleep. She was always talking about the spiritual things and so I just did the best to ignore it and not talk about it but none the less i was plagued by doubts. For the rules of morality are what govern our actions.
The day came when she said that she no longer wanted to be Shane's mother but that she still wanted to be in his life. and thus walked out to be with someone else. What was really cruel was that the next day Shane had to go in for surgery due to Pelorakstenosis( where the stomach cant pass food on to the small intestine because the entrance to it is blocked.) The only thing that she could say when Nena asked her why? was that I spent to much time on the computer. Nena said that she was lucky if that was all the reason there was. Shed always talk about the spiritual things. I figured we'd be able to work it out. Well Iv'e said what i have and now I hope yall know what i mean now by a steadying hand. I know that what she showed me is a lie, that i am a human being and not some demon. and yet doubts still nag me. This Mon. I must go and file for divorce and custody and supervised visitation. For I cannot let Shane be influenced by her. I hope my words have not harmed anyones faith.
I hope you understand but i will not blame you if you dont and just want to see me burn. I hope i was right about you all though. I am listening to the Newsboys: step up to the microphone, Always. In the song "Always" replace her with him. I thank you for your support.
In Christ's name I pray
- Valkyri

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A Game to combine all Games A Game that grows upon itself But A Game that ultimately in the end makes and forces one to ask themselves "Why?"

there really is only one way to cure doubts. God. I'm sure you know that, tho. I don't need to tell you that your not a demon, and that she's not an angel. the facts speak for themselves. all I can really do is pray, and bro, as I said before, I'm doin that.
I'll also be throwing up some prayers for her, she sounds really lost.
not all that seems good is right. Satan does disguise himself as an angel of light. sad to see people go down that way.

P.S. imo, I don't see how your post could harm our faith.

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A Game to combine all Games A Game that grows upon itself But A Game that ultimately in the end makes and forces one to ask themselves "Why?"

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A Game to combine all Games A Game that grows upon itself But A Game that ultimately in the end makes and forces one to ask themselves "Why?"

Valkyri, do you confess Jesus Christ as your Lord? Because no one who isn't born from spirit of God can do that.

Remeber that Jesus warned about false prophets and like ArchAngel said Satan can disguise him self as angel of light.

Infact during my short time of Christian I have already learned by reading similar stories that this is a typical attack from Satan against faith of a believer in Christ. Satan tries to make you feel bad and think that you are bad and your sins wount be forgiven which is NOT true.

Don't be afraid brother, just believe.

God bless.

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And whatsoever ye do in word or deed, do all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God and the Father by him. - Col 3:17

Unless the LORD builds the house, they labor in vain who build it; unless the LORD keeps the city, the watchman stays awake in vain. - Psalms 127:1

As an aside, well I don't know how to put this but. Well it may seem like a dumb question, but I guess its the best way for me to start: What is yalls vision of games for the future? That is how would you all make people who think christian oriented games should burn be willing to play them and yet be willing to be honest with themselves and ask Why am I here? What is my existence? That used to be historically why people went to college was to find out what the meaning of life was. At least for America's history.

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And whatsoever ye do in word or deed, do all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God and the Father by him. - Col 3:17

Unless the LORD builds the house, they labor in vain who build it; unless the LORD keeps the city, the watchman stays awake in vain. - Psalms 127:1

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A Game to combine all Games A Game that grows upon itself But A Game that ultimately in the end makes and forces one to ask themselves "Why?"

In Christ name
-Valkyrie

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A Game to combine all Games A Game that grows upon itself But A Game that ultimately in the end makes and forces one to ask themselves "Why?"

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proverbs 17:28
Even a fool, when he holdeth his peace, is counted wise: and he that shutteth his lips is esteemed a man of understanding.

proverbs 25:7
open rebuke is better than secret love.

www.gfa.org - Gospel for Asia

www.persecution.com - Voice of the Martyrs

Also remember that we cannot be demons, because we are all children of God.

Anyhow, I'm glad things are getting better. If you need to talk about anything you can send me a PM (Private message) Or email me, (check profile) I'll be there if you need to talk. I'll sure try, even thoughI'm pretty busy currently.

God Bless dude,
Max

P.S. Keep your chin up, God looks after those who love him.

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The learned man knows that he is ignorant - Victor Hugo

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Oh you program? Awsome! I try to get in a little....I spend most of my time debugging.

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A Game to combine all Games A Game that grows upon itself But A Game that ultimately in the end makes and forces one to ask themselves "Why?"

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A Game to combine all Games A Game that grows upon itself But A Game that ultimately in the end makes and forces one to ask themselves "Why?"

God bless you and your son.

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And whatsoever ye do in word or deed, do all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God and the Father by him. - Col 3:17

Unless the LORD builds the house, they labor in vain who build it; unless the LORD keeps the city, the watchman stays awake in vain. - Psalms 127:1

Well, the first of college was great. Basically it went like this: Listen, listen, listen, fill out papers, get lost, listen, listen, listen, fill out papers, go get lost, now teachers go get us all lost, listen, listen, listen, go find car, 45 min later get in car, 2 hrs get home. Say to son: I'm so glad to see you. Well, he was asleep. I even ran into some old friends from Magnolia High, and there like: there you are!!!!!!!! Can't say I blame them. I'm the kid that disapeered. Funny how the guy thats the craziest and the wildest is now all of a sudden very composed. (scratches head) The class that I think is going to affect me the most is Sociology. Mr. Royster that teaches it is a Mathamatician, a Sociologist and even a Reverend. It's pretty much gonna be interesting. I know he's going to ask about what has affected our lives and me I'm just going to be uncomfortable. But if God wants to be truthful about it all I will. (gulp) God willing, I should be fine.
In Christ's name,
Valkyri

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A Game to combine all Games A Game that grows upon itself But A Game that ultimately in the end makes and forces one to ask themselves "Why?"

Glad to hear school's going good. I know I'm coming in late on this thread but I'll definately keep you in my prayers. I know how it is to be with a woman you know you shouldn't be with, we never married, but it was a hard break-up none-the-less.

Hey, I live in Spring over by North Harris College and I travel all over the greater Houston area with my work. If you ever want to get together, have lunch or something and pray, just let me know. My email address is in my profile.

MastaLlama

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http://www.jeremysouthard.org

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crud, ill need to fill in.

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(yes, i know im stupid)
God rules!

Blessed are those who show mercy.
They will be shown mercy. - Matthew 5:7

Blessed are those who suffer for doing what is right.
The kingdom of hevan bleongs to them.-Matthew 5:10

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A Game to combine all Games A Game that grows upon itself But A Game that ultimately in the end makes and forces one to ask themselves "Why?"

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A Game to combine all Games A Game that grows upon itself But A Game that ultimately in the end makes and forces one to ask themselves "Why?"

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A Game to combine all Games A Game that grows upon itself But A Game that ultimately in the end makes and forces one to ask themselves "Why?"

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A Game to combine all Games A Game that grows upon itself But A Game that ultimately in the end makes and forces one to ask themselves "Why?"

Raise the little guy well, and he'll turn out to be a God-fearing linbacker!

wow... its a gift... and a curse...

TOPICKILLERDUDE!!!

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(yes, i know im stupid)

Blessed are those who suffer for doing what is right.
The kingdom of hevan bleongs to them.-Matthew 5:10

PM ME YOUR DESCRIPTION OF ME! ILL PUT IT HERE!

Here's all the comments!

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A Game to combine all Games A Game that grows upon itself But A Game that ultimately in the end makes and forces one to ask themselves "Why?"

I got married at 19. It has been real hard work.
I now have three kids my smallest is a few months old.
Some of the greatest joys in my life are from being a dad!
My church had a fathering class that I went to a few yars ago.
I was able to get real support from other dads,
confidence in my own daddy skills,
and great joy from good ideas other dads had.
I would recommend looking for a fathering group in your area.

Good Luck, my prayers are with you.

[This message has been edited by Jachin (edited November 06, 2005).]

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Originally posted by questleader:
Heh, i got like, five or six years to go till im a dad... i dont even have a girlfriend though... wouldnt that be awesome if your first girlfriend was the one you married? dang, that would rock...

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that would be cool.

i've got like... ohh... 10-20 years before i get a GIRLFRIEND, not to mention a wife to be happy with.

and that would NOT be because of me, if i know i what i mean.

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Blessed are those who suffer for doing what is right.
The kingdom of hevan bleongs to them.-Matthew 5:10

PM ME YOUR DESCRIPTION OF ME! ILL PUT IT HERE!

Here's all the comments!

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im thinking "first impressions"

or perhaps "looks"?

can you guess now?

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(yes, i know im stupid)

Blessed are those who suffer for doing what is right.
The kingdom of hevan bleongs to them.-Matthew 5:10

PM ME YOUR DESCRIPTION OF ME! ILL PUT IT HERE!

Here's all the comments!

[This message has been edited by jachin (edited November 09, 2005).]

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A Game to combine all Games A Game that grows upon itself But A Game that ultimately in the end makes and forces one to ask themselves "Why?"

I made it through four years in college(Computer Science) with
one, then two, then three kids(of my own.)
Two part time jobs.
And was a foster parent of a teen and school age.

College Advice: Classes are often lectures so if you bring a laptop it is possible to get 20-80% of an assignment done before you leave class.
If you are a CS major, set up a system you can remote into that has your development tools on it.

Let me know how things are going.
-Jachin

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A Game to combine all Games A Game that grows upon itself But A Game that ultimately in the end makes and forces one to ask themselves "Why?"

in Christ,

Karl

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Karl /GODCENTRIC
Visionary Media
the creative submitted to the divine.
Husband of my amazing wife Aleshia
Klumsy@xtra.co.nz

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AAS Database Administrator

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My database class was taught by a very hard professor.
He was proud of his ability to ask for data that could only be answered by a query that had at least two "not exist[s]" in it.
This soured my enthusiasm toward getting a database job.
Too bad because most database analysts make more than I do.

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Ever wish you could take a glance at nature's source code?

I sure yall wonder what kind of addition I could make in coding, well to that all I can say is that my heart says stories cause lately that is all I seem able to think of. I appreciate yalls prayers and yalls willingness to put up with me. I will keep yall in my prayers.
In Christ,
Valkyri

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A Game to combine all Games A Game that grows upon itself But A Game that ultimately in the end makes and forces one to ask themselves "Why?"

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Ever wish you could take a glance at nature's source code?

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A Game to combine all Games A Game that grows upon itself But A Game that ultimately in the end makes and forces one to ask themselves "Why?"

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A Game to combine all Games A Game that grows upon itself But A Game that ultimately in the end makes and forces one to ask themselves "Why?"

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In the stock market, you must buy high and sell low...Wait! That's not right!
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Yes, I can be intelligent at times!!

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A Game to combine all Games A Game that grows upon itself But A Game that ultimately in the end makes and forces one to ask themselves "Why?"

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In the stock market, you must buy high and sell low...Wait! That's not right!
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Yes, I can be intelligent at times!!

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A Game to combine all Games A Game that grows upon itself But A Game that ultimately in the end makes and forces one to ask themselves "Why?"

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Ever wish you could take a glance at nature's source code?